Boundless

Lying here in silence,
street lamp’s white light coming in

through the lush branches of an oak tree

right outside the window, teasing me…
Come dance with me, it says.
The warm summer breeze

collides with the movement of air

from the fan at my feet

…like an ocean wave crashing into shore;

a re-awakening

to what I had always known.

The blades spin at medium speed;
its soothing white noise

competing with the sound of crickets,
and I think of the sea…
An occasional car passes by,

and a mosaic of moments past

comes flooding in.

It sounds and smells like summer…
I think of my children

and their innocence

steadily eroding,
and I am simultaneously a mother, a teenager and a child.
I hear faint music

from a stage of my childhood,
and revisit daydreams

that I would return to again and again over the years.
And I wonder

if I will ever feel the merging of my soul

with the soul of another,
in and out of body,

unrestricted and timeless…
Beyond admiration, infatuation, lust

…to the true dissolution of boundaries

into a boundless field of unified energy

where two really do become one.

Profound understanding that transcends knowledge;
a spiritual connection that is love in its purest form.
How I long to love like that!
How I long to feel loved like that…
I feel my eyes getting heavy
as the sounds get fainter and fainter,
and the soft breeze caresses my face
as a hand of a lover
lulling me to sleep.