Moving Forward

Tossed between the mind and the heart, 
I linger in the unknowing.
My heart is open and I feel the fire burning 
as I listen to you talk.
The mind says:
"Be careful!"
Hesitation colors my presence 
as I tread these unfamiliar waters,
waiting for a sign that you would not change 
your mind
this time.
I let go of not wanting,
and allow myself to anchor to a vision 
of a life with you.
All of the beautiful things
coming together.
Finally.
You and I.

I sense distance - 
Cognitive dissonance so palpable
as your words invite me to a future 
your actions do not support.
So I wait,
and retreat,
ever so slightly,
until you tell me
I am not the one you want.